You, Me and the in between

 1 November 2021 "My dark days made me strong. Or maybe I was already strong,  and they just made me prove it." -Emery Lord Well, today seems as if it is a rather gloomy day in my eyes. Not only do I have to return to school, which may I add is not my most favourite place on Earth, but I have to once again leave everything behind. If there's one thing I've learnt about being in the school that I am not in is that you're taught that going home is a privilege. That going home and seeing your friends and family, the things you had to leave behind is a privilege. You're right is to finish school, but you're privilege is to go home (wherever that is). Hiraeth (ever heard of it?) It basically means missing something, longing for someone or a homesickness over something you no longer/ may not have any longer.  It's how I would suggest I currently feel.  You come home to a home that's not yours, go to a school you're sort of expected to call home- I m...

"It will all become your best story in the end" -Sabrina Shortcakes-

  The following was when I spoke to myself and replied to myself in the way my character would. Don't be alarmed. I am alright 😂😂😂 A CONVERSATION BETWEEN ME AND SABRINA Basically a therapy session between me and my alter-ego S: Sabastien (AKA: Me) B: Sabrina (B meaning bitch ) Dialogue B: So tell me what’s wrong pumpkin, why you gotta be so down lately? S: I don’t quite know to be quite honest. It just seems as if everything’s going wrong. B: HOW is everything going wrong? S: I’ve been stressing. B: Please give me the full story, because I am NOT about to ask you questions to try and drag it all out of you. S: Well give me your headline question. B: Babes, What the fuck is wrong with you!? S: I HATE MYSELF! It’s as if I’m doing everything wrong because I try to be this good son to my mother who cares so much and I DO! But I’m almost in grade 10 heading towards an NSC that doesn’t benefit me for the future I want, I’m stressing because the present I’m in h...

SO... I wrote this story after a friend of mine was falsely diagnosed with COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease). A group of infections in the lungs that make it harder and harder to breathe until you just stop. SO, one day I went to the bathroom at school and was taking a piss but my piss looked a little bit like it had blood in it, it burnt and I  felt sick afterwards. I then sat down to write thinking about sickness and my friend at the time and compiled a story that made many people cry. Yes, I am very proud of that. This friend of mine and I had somewhat unintentionally ended our friendship with each other over a reason you might get to see later in this journal. I missed him, and thought about him, and then wrote about him.  Don't  worry! Him and I reunited as friends (and maybe more) only to have him ended all a month and a half later. It has been a week since him and I last spoke and here I bring to you a story about him (now being apart of my past)....